Dear Fellow Doubters,
I remember the feeling. I know the struggle, the fear of failure, and the resulting apathy. I understand how tiresome it can be to continuously set alarms for 5:30 AM, and looking back, the fear of having to do it for another four years is still all too real to me. You see, as a high school swimmer, I fell into the trap. My team was tangled in a netting of complaints, negativity, and indifference. Deep down we all loved the sport, but when success is measured so harshly and accurately by a stopwatch, we were quick to mask our own discouragement with an apathetic attitude.
I vividly remember lounging in front of the TV senior year as my older sister (a softball player for Saint Louis University) interrogated me about my decision not to look for a college swim program. “Erin, I’m not good enough, and I don’t even like swimming.” She glared right through my protective cloak of carelessness and continued to pester me. I had to back up my claims to get her off my back, “Erin look at the NCAA 50-yard free times, almost all of the top 100 sprinters go 19 point. I have not even broken 22 seconds.” Before I even had the chance to list my other excuses, she had Boston College Swimming’s website open and in front of me. As she forced me to read about the team, she explained the camaraderie, enthusiasm, and competitive nature of college teams. She begged me to just try emailing coaches. “Swim for one year and quit if you don’t like it.”
Turns out, after just one week of swimming for Boston College, I climbed out of my bottomless pit of apathy, and boy did it show on that suddenly not-so-harsh stopwatch. You can imagine the amount of credit my sister cashed in when I qualified for Olympic Trials in the 50-meter freestyle this past summer.
So think of me as an older, wiser, unrelenting sibling of yours: I can see right through your transparent veil of indifference. If you didn’t care enough about swimming to try it in college, you would not have set that 5:30 AM alarm this morning… or last morning… or the hundreds of mornings before that. Something kept you going, and that same something is going to launch you toward success when you inevitably find a college program that you care about. So go out there, research college swim programs, and just try it “for one year.”
A high school swimmer who “wasn’t good enough” to swim in college
“Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up” – Thomas Edison